Here i'm, 
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No matter what kind of problem we're facing,
I want us to solved it but not thinking of going the separate ways.

Argh! Sometimes I feel so much i don’t even know what to do with it. Like i need a mental closet for all my bullshit or feelings or whatever. Why am i always thinking so far so much? Because i love you. The longer i live, the more i realized the impact of attitude on life. Attitude, to me, is more important than facts. It is more important than the past, the education, the money, than circumstances, than failure, than successes, than what other people think or say or do. There are so many good things that come into my life and then they leave so abruptly. Sigh* for the past two days. What's wrong with me. Expectation's what i'm stressed about now. Studies and relationship. I'm afraid of marriage, I hate questions all around me that made me mad. I hate the words you said that makes me sad. I hate your loud voice that makes me cried. I hate the world being so realistic.!! When can i be fully in happiness? I want to be the happiest girl in the world. I want to update everyday with all my happy moment, Not all complains. Never knew i would burst out all the emotion that left inside my heart and cried last night. I'll not cry infront of a guy friend no matter what. This's my first time. I'm so weak by holding on my tears. What makes my heartache was that i feel that i was always compared to her. Which girl would like to be compared by their boyfriend? Especially guys "ex girlfriend".  Am i right? Maybe you want me to be better than her ? Or maybe you think that i haven't hit her expectation ? Which girl doesn't want to be her boyfriend perfection. You can't read my mind fully, You can only guess what i'm thinking or maybe better by knowing my attitude. I'm a crybaby, I cired alot alone. No one knows. No matter what kind of problems we're facing, I want us to solved it together but not thinking of going the separate ways. Only then relationship can last. Finally i've finished complaining. I'm still in a dillema. Nevermind, Ignore me. Dont wish to elaborate much liao lah. I wanna cry till the whole world flood lah )': Sobs.

我只想好好爱你，其它的我不在乎

什么也好，就是不想失去你

Live life to its fullest , I'll walk the endless road with you.

You've come into my life through the door, I'm afraid it will never be opened again. For many have slammed it on their way out. Your presence embracing my being. The feeling overwhelming my senses your occupies a space long thought to be vacant. This must be what romance is. Bitter, biting winter makes our cold hands clasp tighter but deep inside your eyes make me warm and your lips spark the fire. Arms gather me up just can't seen to get close enough so instead i wrap my soul around you essence and i close my eyes while our shodows love on the wall. If you only knew my feelings for you, If you only knew how much i care for you, If you only knew i think for you before me, If you only knew how much i love you. I guess you'll never know unless you feel the same way too. (: I don't want me to be the one saying "Whenever I think of reverting the love story we had, I can only dream." If not, By the time you realized it's worth it was too late. Life's unpredictable, Live life to your fullest. No one's family is perfectly alright. No perfect relationship too, There'll always be a up & down to get through. This is life. Just few more months to go, I believe you can get through. Never cry alone when you've a shoulder to lean on, An ear to listen, And a heart to comfort. If it hurts too much to look back, but you're too scared to look ahead, Just look beside you and I'll be there. (: ℒℴvℯ yℴu

Current song : Mary says

Alibababaaa, I won't hate you just because you dodge one date. (:

A bestfriend is just like a sweater,
It keeps you warm with an weird sense of security through cold weathers.
It doesnt have to be Gucci, it doesnt have to make you pretty,
Even if it's just plain and boring, you know it is adoring.
Never take it for granted even though it's never wanted,
By people who sneered down on it with wriggled noses,
But you know they are just a bunch of losers.

A boyfriend is like an old pair of jeans, for the one you are serious to at least.
It makes you feel good in your own skin, although he is at times mean.
Not all the time though, just a little so, When at times you just want to be a different you, but it doesnt allow you to.
Sometimes it thinks too highly of itself, thinking it could be in place of something else,
You wouldnt wear it all the time, because you want to give flirty dresses a try.
Maybe you won't think it can, but at the end of the day he is still the one holding your hand,
It doesnt care if it goes well with your top nor your shoes,because all he wants is to be with you.

Flirty dresses are like one night stands, they come and go, not bothering to even say when.
They are like your Channel, Prada, D&G, gaining compliments from others for that instance of glee
Then they, HAHA leave you with HIV.

Flings are like forgotten stock, ransacked, tried but never bought.
Because they are either branded replications that were created out of desperation,
Or clothes of the wrong size, which we would then just turn a blind eye.

Friends are like your loose fitting dresses,
On days you wear them when you feel nothing but fatness.
They hide your impurities, and you are grateful for their doings,
But you know they are not the best for you,as on other days you'd want to flaunt what you have in you.

Your family is like your underwear, you wouldnt wear any of the above with them being there.
But if you do and confess, you're just a damn weird ass.
They support you in silence, but you blame them for being a hindrance.
They never blamed or minded being uncredited, But they just want to feel they are appreciated.
They might not be the trendiest things around, compared to your dresses, tops and fancy gowns.

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Family reunion (:

Dream of me tomorrow, Because tonight i'm a nightmare.

Hi readers. I'm back to post, Yeap. Sorry for the lack of blogging which makes me lost alot of readers. Haha, Hope you guys don't mind. (: I'm leading a great life now. Remember me blogging about my mum? She's back! Yes, After so much up and down. ( Kid teung mak mak. ) She came to look for my dad. 8years not being able to see you. Was miserable, Upset, Devastated, Missing you badly but can't be able to tell anyone about it or do anything. You once did called my house, I knew that was you speaking to me. But you doesn't want to tell me that was you, End up leaving your number down. Yet clumsy me didn't save the number properly and can't be able to contact you. My heart filled with grief. Overall, No matter what kind of bad things you did to us in the past. You're still my mother. Tears trickled down my cheeks when i knew i could be able to see you soon. That kind of feelings, Can't be describe. Don't be abash mum, You doesn't need anyone to forgive you, Just change for a better to let people around realize. You told me, You're coming back to just see us. Not about money or anything else. I took your words, I hope you're not back to destroy our life. Brother did not have the thoughts of not seeing you, Just that. For this 17years spending in earth. He used to it without a mum. Just like me. You've to understand. I understand him too. I admit, When i knew i could see you soon. I was ecstatic. I miss the thai-food you cooked, No others could be compare. Well, Why am i writing all these here? Because i can't find anyone that i could speak to. Even my boyfriend. I used to be this way. Yeah. You might see me laughing everyday happily, Smiling pretend that nothing has happen. But i can tell you, There's something behind my smile. Sad to say, There's not much friend that i could trust too. No matter how many years I've known them. So what? They've their life. Who would give a fuck about it? I give something always, But i always don't ask for any returns. I hope anyone out that is reading this would cherish friends around you seriously. You might not regret what you've done now, In the future you will. I believe in retribution. And if you're trying to test my patience out there, Then don't blame me being nasty. Talk's always cheap, I hope you could show me more. Thanks guys. Atleast i know what kind of friends I am having. If you hate me so much, Or you dislike my attitude/ways. Judge me with whatever you're up to, Cause i'm not giving a dam and i don't owe anyone a living. I live for myself, My family. You can be better than me in anyway, But i can win a point of you having a golden heart towards good friends. Well, I know what kind of friends i should keep and what kind of friends i don't. I'm not afraid of you saying me thick skin, This is who I'm. (:

Libra Horoscope
You could be hypersensitive and emotionally vulnerable to others today. You're likely to absorb energy like a sponge which could result in some sort of unpleasant feelings.It is best to avoid those tensions with negative or unhappy people by not associating with them.If you see someone negative moving towards you on the horizon, turn around and walk in the opposite direction.

Current Song : Am Fine - Faen Kao

I'm deeply in love , madness .